I am sure this is a question that most of you have asked yourselves… What is she doing down there in Miami? Well, today I am going to tell you. I have a private event staffing agency in Miami. No, it is not an escort agency, popular to some beliefs. So those of you that ask me how much for an hour when I come back to Chicago can stop now. It’s weird, but I suppose I should have explained this before I linked my business to the blog.
How did I end up in this? Here’s the tea…
I made a lot of bad choices. I lost my faith somewhere down the line and chose to play the ignorance is bliss agnostic. I turned to alcohol and other substances that led me off my path. I was baited down here by a demon and I fell for it hook, line and sinker. I was a fool. I thought this man actually cared about me, but boy was I wrong.
I was caught up in the material world. MONEY! CARS! KASH! I was blinded and turned into an asshole without even realizing it. I was an asshole before I met Shwolf by the way, that is what made it easier for me to be led down here on such materialistic pretenses.
It was a trap and I fell right into it. I am ashamed and I am embarrassed for some of the choices I have made. I have done and said some mean horrible things to good people all the while knowing that is really not my nature. I’ve probably made my deceased relatives turn in their graves and I am sure I’ve hurt my family as well and for that I am truly sorry.
The three years I have spent in Miami I have been tormented, abused and made to feel like I was crazy when in fact I was just a product of my chaotic psychotic environment. I was told I am paranoid and delusional by multiple people even after providing proof of things that happened.
I was manipulated by my captor, so to speak… Is Shwolf really a demon? I don’t know, but there is something void in him that allows him to do nefarious, rotten things without worrying about the consequences of his actions.
He showed me a life of luxury, a life that I wanted to maintain after I chose to leave him, so that led me down an even darker path.
I was supposed to be so emotionally damaged and drug addled to see the light that the things I was doing were going against who I was as a person.
It wasn’t until I was in Philadelphia that the signs started to appear to me. To be quite honest it scared the shit out of me. I was having dinner and when I got my check the total was 66.66. It was alarming.
I looked at what the numbers meant. I always equated it with something evil. 666 – number of the beast. It was in that moment I realized I should probably stop doing what I’m doing. It was a struggle for me to stop drinking. It was something I have always struggled with until now.
Other things have happened, but that was the initial sign.
I’m here to tell you that for there to be such evil in the world there is an overwhelming amount of good. Even if you’ve been doing horrible, rotten things there is still hope for you to turn it around. All you have to do is open yourself up to the signs.
I became a product of my toxic environment and I let the world change me. I let demons in and for that I am ashamed, but today I am in control of me. No one else, or no substance is. I am sober and have more clarity than ever before.
I encourage you if you’re struggling with alcohol and drugs to try your best to stop. That is how we are controlled and manipulated in today’s society. That is how the demons seep in. I don’t know if any of you have ever read about Sodom and Gomorrah, but I really suggest you take a look at it.
It’s not to late to turn to the light. Help people and try your best to show love. The world needs kindness. The world needs God.
I am KASH, what were all selling our souls for.